Cheap and durable? I would go with ruger lcp although not my favorite gun for ccw. I have a sig p238, I prefer it for the better build quality and switched safety since it's a pocket gun.
Size depends on how you want to carry. I prefer pocket carry, which limits you a good bit. Some of the tinier 9mm fit ok but imo that's about as large of a round as you can carry in a pocket holster.
Who is it that you're afraid is going to get you? Just curious.
I don't think OP should have to justify his reasons. I live 2-3 hours away from 8 of the most dangerous cities in the US. My neighbors house and RV has been broken into, people in my area (thank god not in my actually city. I'm in a semi rural area) have been mugged, kidnapped and rapped. Home invasions are becoming more common and many times, 911 isn't an option.Who is it that you're afraid is going to get you? Just curious.
I don't think OP should have to justify his reasons. I live 2-3 hours away from 8 of the most dangerous cities in the US. My neighbors house and RV has been broken into, people in my area (thank god not in my actually city. I'm in a semi rural area) have been mugged, kidnapped and rapped. Home invasions are becoming more common and many times, 911 isn't an option.
He doesn't necessarily have to be afraid of anything. If you have a fire extinguisher, does that mean your afraid your house is going to burn down? If you have a spare tire, does that mean your afraid one is going to pop? No. Not usually. You have it just in case something does happen. It's not about living in fear.
Why do you need a gun when you can just pray to Jesus? He is all-powerful, he will protect you.
What is your definition of cheap? Right now the best out there in a small CCW for a good price is the Smith and Wesson Shield. They run $400 and under, available in both 9mm and .40. It's a slim single stack for good conceal ability. The LCP is a good choice if your on a real tight budget but I don't consider .380 a good primary defense weapon, especially these days with everyone screwed up on meth and crack.
My CCW right now is a Sig P239 is .40. Great gun but it's expensive and heavy, but I have an affinity for all steel guns.
Cheap = <$700 for everything including hoster. Pretty much want a reliable gun that won't jam on me and good stopping power but is comfortable enough to carry daily.
Or you can pray to Jesus to give you good nerves and aim so that you will hit your target.