I've only read like 1/3 of the thread, but it's just too long for me anyway, and here's my 2 cents:
I'm 18 (19 in a few months), and I was born in a Christian family in eastern europe. I moved here to CA when I was 5, so really, I was raised here, not there. Anyway...here's what I think.
People who were born up to believe in evolution, or other "religions," are doomed. SORRY! but we cannot prove christ to you. You simply have to think about it and make a decision for yourself.
I have a friend just like you. She's about 2 years older then me, going to have her master's degree in about 2 years or so. She's REALLY smart and really nice - what you might call a near perfect person. However, she was raised up in a non christian family of a different "religion" and now, she's chosen to not believe in anything but science and evolution. In this way, she's very much like you.
Well, I've pointed things out to her about why I believe in what I believe, etc. Sorry, but I was not able to. I guess i'm not a bible scholar or whatever. My dad is. He's a preacher, and an evangelist, I guess you can say. A right wing christian, been through communism for 10 or so years in Europe while he was a christian. Been through all that.
Not me, I'm spoiled compared to what he had. And you know, I was raised a christian, and he was not. And when I look at the things I've done, and the things he did, my morals are much lower than his.
Ever since i broke up with this girl a few months ago, I started looking at what I really believe in and who I want to be. To tell you the truth, after 18 years of living life like everyone else, it's hard to change. Basically, I don't do anything different than I did before, I just feel more and more guilty about all the bad things I do. This causes me to go into mass depressions sometimes, lasting months even, and that just makes me get even worse. It's like a cycle.
Anyway, sorry...I'm not going to go much into this argument. The only thing we can do for people like you is the same thing that my parents have done for me all these years: pray. And if you ask me, that's maybe the only reason I'm still alive.
I started thinking about how precious life as after I really screwed mine up in the past 2 years or so. And then about 3 months ago, I got into a near death, head on car accident going 40 mph, totalled my car, and now I have no permanent injuries after 3 months - you can't even tell I've ever been in an accident unless I tell you (or, maybe, if you see how I drive, you would know that way too .
Anyway....we'll be praying for ppl like you, it's all I can say.
Why do I put "religion" in quotes? Main reason - I don't believe that the belief in christ is a "religion;" I think it's a spiritual relationships that makes us feel and think different than most people, and gives us some sort of guidance. A world without God is like a kid without a father - a bastard. That's what the world has become - a bastard.
And as for proof that God exists - the experiences that I've had in life, and what I see happening in the world today, and all the prophesies which are being filled - well that's proof enough for me to know that God is real.
I wrote my final freshmen year english essay on why the world is so screwed up, and if you want, I can send you that file . i have it in MS word 2000 format if you want it.
That's all I have to say, I hope you ppl take my comments as something thoughtful and make you think. Maybe I'll be able to help someone here.
Email me
tambrus@yahoo.com if you have anything to say.
Tibor