Nothing matters...

[idNut]

I'm hell-bent on believing nothing matters in life and/or death. I've really shifted to the beliefs of a nihilist lately. I can't see any meaning in anything anymore: success, failure, living, dying, pain and pleasure. Am I the only person who sees this? Everyone goes about life as if they're serving some divine purpose. After they die, the earth will still rotate and orbit, nothing changes. (Read Ecclesiastes) My psychologist ignores me when I ask these questions and he thinks they're just a side effect from being depressed about my family. I assure you that this affects me much more than my family. I think he believes that once my family problems are solved I will return to conformity and these thoughts will never bother me again.

This has affected my life so much lately that the only thing I will do is sleep. I don't want to deal with reality so I just fall asleep for as long as I can and when I've slept all I can, I'll stare at the ceiling until I fall asleep again. This is the rare occasion that I'll venture to my computer to visit Anandtech because this is my favorite site and I guess one of the only things I live for (Ha). So my standards have fallen in life. My goal in life is to get through life as a recluse because I no longer desire the pleasure of success or the pain of failure. I care about nothing and no one, least of all myself. I have one thing on my mind.

 

[konichiwa]

Prozac.

 

[BooGiMaN]

what the hell is this freaky friday with a full moon or soemthing!!?
between your post and MichealD's...man im starting to worry about yootz guys

 

[Wallydraigle]

That's a painful realization to come to, but I would have to agree.

 

[PoPPeR]

so is that one thing on your mind sleeping or anandtech?

 

[idNut]

Originally posted by: PoPPeR
so is that one thing on your mind sleeping or anandtech?

Death

 

[boyRacer]

i seriously hope you find something to smile about soon... although i don't think anyone could change how you feel right now... other than you... i think life is a lot more than what you think it is.

 

[AznMaverick]

Originally posted by: lirion
That's a painful realization to come to, but I would have to agree.

i would also have to agree. after failing a lot of tests and watching on '60 minutes' that there are trillions (not really, but there are a lot) of brilliant indian people that come out of India. i now realize that i will by no means be where i want to be later in life. (sorry for the bad grammar). but, i am very depressed now, and find no meaning in MY life. and after thinking about it, there really is no real meaning of anyone's life. in this whole universe we are but a tiny little dot. living on a planet filled with people that are very disturbing. but i guess the only real reason of living is to see the people that you love? *shrug* i dunno...

 

[Narse]

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: PoPPeR
so is that one thing on your mind sleeping or anandtech?

Death

I used to be this way until I decided that I was hurting NOONE but myself, What fun is in death? So I made my mind to see what I could do if I spent time thining about things I could do instead of what I couldn't. I now have a great wife, a great job and I am quite happy. And I also now have many friends. I now enjoy to go out and drink some beer. Try it, Life is great once you start to think about life instead of death and the bad.

 

[PliotronX]

Apathy is a dangerous place to be in, that's all I know.

 

[Renob]

Go see a head doctor.


Fast.

Hope you feel better.

 

[JohnCU]

The sun is going to exhaust it's hydrogen fuel in 5 billion years and turn into a white dwarf and the earth will be vaporized by the expanding envelope, so all of our successes and knowledge will be gone, so...

 

[idNut]

Originally posted by: Narse77

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: PoPPeR
so is that one thing on your mind sleeping or anandtech?

Death

I used to be this way until I decided that I was hurting NOONE but myself, What fun is in death? So I made my mind to see what I could do if I spent time thining about things I could do instead of what I couldn't. I now have a great wife, a great job and I am quite happy. And I also now have many friends. I now enjoy to go out and drink some beer. Try it, Life is great once you start to think about life instead of death and the bad.

This is what I'm talking about. Optimism is self-deception. Instead of looking into that dark corner which I am trying to describe, people just turn away from it and try not grasp the terrible fact. I don't know what I'm trying to do when I make these statements, depress more people? Probably. I think I just want someone to give up with.

 

[Wallydraigle]

Originally posted by: AznMaverick

Originally posted by: lirion
That's a painful realization to come to, but I would have to agree.

i would also have to agree. after failing a lot of tests and watching on '60 minutes' that there are trillions (not really, but there are a lot) of brilliant indian people that come out of India. i now realize that i will by no means be where i want to be later in life. (sorry for the bad grammar). but, i am very depressed now, and find no meaning in MY life. and after thinking about it, there really is no real meaning of anyone's life. in this whole universe we are but a tiny little dot. living on a planet filled with people that are very disturbing. but i guess the only real reason of living is to see the people that you love? *shrug* i dunno...

It's painful at first, but liberating in a way. Those with no purpose have great freedom. It must be terribly burdensome to be important, or at least to believe you are. When you realize that nothing matters, you can realize what matters to you, matters most of all. Nicknacks don't matter. Yet we cherish them more highly that many objects that serve a profound purpose. It might be said that toilets are very important, but when was the last time you sat in adoration of your throne?

Find what matters to you, and you've found the only thing that really matters.

 

[Narse]

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: Narse77

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: PoPPeR
so is that one thing on your mind sleeping or anandtech?

Death

I used to be this way until I decided that I was hurting NOONE but myself, What fun is in death? So I made my mind to see what I could do if I spent time thining about things I could do instead of what I couldn't. I now have a great wife, a great job and I am quite happy. And I also now have many friends. I now enjoy to go out and drink some beer. Try it, Life is great once you start to think about life instead of death and the bad.

This is what I'm talking about. Optimism is self-deception. Instead of looking into that dark corner which I am trying to describe, people just turn away from it and try not grasp the terrible fact. I don't know what I'm trying to do when I make these statements, depress more people? Probably. I think I just want someone to give up with.

Let me ask you this, Who will benefiet from your death? Who will benifiet from your life? same answer right? so why just give up? I am sorry I like to make a run at everything

 

[idNut]

Originally posted by: Narse77

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: Narse77

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: PoPPeR
so is that one thing on your mind sleeping or anandtech?

Death

I used to be this way until I decided that I was hurting NOONE but myself, What fun is in death? So I made my mind to see what I could do if I spent time thining about things I could do instead of what I couldn't. I now have a great wife, a great job and I am quite happy. And I also now have many friends. I now enjoy to go out and drink some beer. Try it, Life is great once you start to think about life instead of death and the bad.

This is what I'm talking about. Optimism is self-deception. Instead of looking into that dark corner which I am trying to describe, people just turn away from it and try not grasp the terrible fact. I don't know what I'm trying to do when I make these statements, depress more people? Probably. I think I just want someone to give up with.

Let me ask you this, Who will benefiet from your death? Who will benifiet from your life? same answer right? so why just give up? I am sorry I like to make a run at everything

Why give up? Why try?

 

[giguana]

Originally posted by: BooGiMaN
what the hell is this freaky friday with a full moon or soemthing!!?
between your post and MichealD's...man im starting to worry about yootz guys

no sh!t.

HEY PSYCHO... STEP AWAY FROM THE LEDGE...

 

[MacBaine]

Looks like suicide is your best option at this point.



(Credit still goes to BillGates for that quote a while back )

 

[Narse]

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: Narse77

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: Narse77

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: PoPPeR
so is that one thing on your mind sleeping or anandtech?

Death

I used to be this way until I decided that I was hurting NOONE but myself, What fun is in death? So I made my mind to see what I could do if I spent time thining about things I could do instead of what I couldn't. I now have a great wife, a great job and I am quite happy. And I also now have many friends. I now enjoy to go out and drink some beer. Try it, Life is great once you start to think about life instead of death and the bad.

This is what I'm talking about. Optimism is self-deception. Instead of looking into that dark corner which I am trying to describe, people just turn away from it and try not grasp the terrible fact. I don't know what I'm trying to do when I make these statements, depress more people? Probably. I think I just want someone to give up with.

Let me ask you this, Who will benefiet from your death? Who will benifiet from your life? same answer right? so why just give up? I am sorry I like to make a run at everything

Why give up? Why try?

Well if you ask why give up and why try in the same question then you tell me why give up?

 

[AznMaverick]

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: Narse77

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: Narse77

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: PoPPeR
so is that one thing on your mind sleeping or anandtech?

Death

I used to be this way until I decided that I was hurting NOONE but myself, What fun is in death? So I made my mind to see what I could do if I spent time thining about things I could do instead of what I couldn't. I now have a great wife, a great job and I am quite happy. And I also now have many friends. I now enjoy to go out and drink some beer. Try it, Life is great once you start to think about life instead of death and the bad.

This is what I'm talking about. Optimism is self-deception. Instead of looking into that dark corner which I am trying to describe, people just turn away from it and try not grasp the terrible fact. I don't know what I'm trying to do when I make these statements, depress more people? Probably. I think I just want someone to give up with.

Let me ask you this, Who will benefiet from your death? Who will benifiet from your life? same answer right? so why just give up? I am sorry I like to make a run at everything

Why give up? Why try?

the only reason i'm not giving up, and i keep trying is for the sake of my parents. when they die, i wonder how i will handle myself.

 

[boyRacer]

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: Narse77

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: PoPPeR
so is that one thing on your mind sleeping or anandtech?

Death

I used to be this way until I decided that I was hurting NOONE but myself, What fun is in death? So I made my mind to see what I could do if I spent time thining about things I could do instead of what I couldn't. I now have a great wife, a great job and I am quite happy. And I also now have many friends. I now enjoy to go out and drink some beer. Try it, Life is great once you start to think about life instead of death and the bad.

This is what I'm talking about. Optimism is self-deception. Instead of looking into that dark corner which I am trying to describe, people just turn away from it and try not grasp the terrible fact. I don't know what I'm trying to do when I make these statements, depress more people? Probably. I think I just want someone to give up with.

Optimism is not self-deception. Self-esteem is a powerful thing... i suppose you need an inspiration. i was like you... depressed... for about 3 years i guess. maybe you're problem is you're blocking everything that could help you... or you don't want anyone to help you.

 

[giguana]

Originally posted by: AznMaverick

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: Narse77

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: Narse77

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: PoPPeR
so is that one thing on your mind sleeping or anandtech?

Death

I used to be this way until I decided that I was hurting NOONE but myself, What fun is in death? So I made my mind to see what I could do if I spent time thining about things I could do instead of what I couldn't. I now have a great wife, a great job and I am quite happy. And I also now have many friends. I now enjoy to go out and drink some beer. Try it, Life is great once you start to think about life instead of death and the bad.

This is what I'm talking about. Optimism is self-deception. Instead of looking into that dark corner which I am trying to describe, people just turn away from it and try not grasp the terrible fact. I don't know what I'm trying to do when I make these statements, depress more people? Probably. I think I just want someone to give up with.

Let me ask you this, Who will benefiet from your death? Who will benifiet from your life? same answer right? so why just give up? I am sorry I like to make a run at everything

Why give up? Why try?

the only reason i'm not giving up, and i keep trying is for the sake of my parents. when they die, i wonder how i will handle myself.

when they die, you will have to do it for the sake of your wife and kids.

 

[idNut]

Originally posted by: giguana

Originally posted by: BooGiMaN
what the hell is this freaky friday with a full moon or soemthing!!?
between your post and MichealD's...man im starting to worry about yootz guys

no sh!t.

HEY PSYCHO... STEP AWAY FROM THE LEDGE...

See now this truly pisses me off. Psycho? For what, realizing that you and I don't matter in this enigma of the universe? I didn't say I wanted to kill thousands of people or anything psychotic as a matter of fact.

 

[MacBaine]

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: giguana

Originally posted by: BooGiMaN
what the hell is this freaky friday with a full moon or soemthing!!?
between your post and MichealD's...man im starting to worry about yootz guys

no sh!t.

HEY PSYCHO... STEP AWAY FROM THE LEDGE...

See now this truly pisses me off. Psycho? For what, realizing that you and I don't matter in this enigma of the universe? I didn't say I wanted to kill thousands of people or anything psychotic as a matter of fact.

Yeah, so you think nothing matters.. right? So why don't you just try to live your life and have fun instead of sitting in your room whining about how your life sucks? Maybe if you would stop complaining and actually do something, you would see how stupid it is to just sit there thinking "nothing matters... why try". Nobody here has any sympathy for you. If you were trying to improve your life, than maybe we would, but you aren't.

 

[giguana]

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: giguana

Originally posted by: BooGiMaN
what the hell is this freaky friday with a full moon or soemthing!!?
between your post and MichealD's...man im starting to worry about yootz guys

no sh!t.

HEY PSYCHO... STEP AWAY FROM THE LEDGE...

See now this truly pisses me off. Psycho? For what, realizing that you and I don't matter in this enigma of the universe? I didn't say I wanted to kill thousands of people or anything psychotic as a matter of fact.

Ok. Truthfully it was a badly timed joke. I understand that you're feeling this way, but I don't understand the actual feeling.
I apologize for that.