Nothing matters...

[Jzero]

w00t!

 

[idNut]

What's it take to become a Diamond Member? >5K?

 

[Smolek]

Originally posted by: idNut
What's it take to become a Diamond Member? >5K?

3k

 

[CrackRabbit]

Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fscking big television. Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fscking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fsck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fscking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fscked up brats you spawned to replace you. Choose your future. Choose life.

 

[Ausm]

<---Pouring himself a stiff drink

Ausm

 

[Jzero]

Originally posted by: CrackRabbit
Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fscking big television. Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fscking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fsck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fscking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fscked up brats you spawned to replace you. Choose your future. Choose life.

*Cradling and stroking my Trainspotting DVD

 

[idNut]

Oh boy.

Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

I'm proud of that list for some reason.

 

[aswedc]

Sorry man but I think your shrink is right on this one. You're depressed because you don't care about anything, which is most likely because the things you care about most have let you down. He may not be right that the root cause is your family, but there is a cause. Maybe it is your friends, social life, school performance? Try to figure it out...

 

[Barnaby W. Füi]

Originally posted by: idNut
Oh boy.

Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

I'm proud of that list for some reason.

I know the feeling. In a world where people piss on you for being weird, you tend to build up a bit of conceitedness about being weird (this fits into being schizotypal) to keep yourself from descending into a pool of low self esteem. Now that you realize how fscked up you are, it's time to figure out what you can start doing to change the things you don't like. (that's what I've been doing anyways)

 

[idNut]

Originally posted by: BingBongWongFooey

Originally posted by: idNut
Oh boy.

Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

I'm proud of that list for some reason.

I know the feeling. In a world where people piss on you for being weird, you tend to build up a bit of conceitedness about being weird (this fits into being schizotypal) to keep yourself from descending into a pool of low self esteem. Now that you realize how fscked up you are, it's time to figure out what you can start doing to change the things you don't like. (that's what I've been doing anyways)

So that's actually true that I am likely for all those illnesses?

 

[Barnaby W. Füi]

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: BingBongWongFooey

Originally posted by: idNut
Oh boy.

Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

I'm proud of that list for some reason.

I know the feeling. In a world where people piss on you for being weird, you tend to build up a bit of conceitedness about being weird (this fits into being schizotypal) to keep yourself from descending into a pool of low self esteem. Now that you realize how fscked up you are, it's time to figure out what you can start doing to change the things you don't like. (that's what I've been doing anyways)

So that's actually true that I am likely for all those illnesses?

Well they're not really diseases, alot of them are just emotional issues. Read the descriptions, I'm sure you can judge which ones you are and aren't. My results were not surprising at all to me.

 

[Zebo]

Sweet post moonie

I used to have this discussions while high, "save the day" idnut and stop reading TH Lawrence.

 

[idNut]

Originally posted by: Carbonyl
Sweet post moonie

I used to have this discussions while high, "save the day" idnut and stop reading TH Lawrence.

Who the hell is TH Lawerence?

 

[purepolly]

"The only thing I hope for is that God exists."

Isn't that kinda really the point?

Sounds like you are having a spiritual crisis more than anything to me. Try reading M. Scott Peck's "The Road Less Travelled"...

 

[Isla]

Originally posted by: purepolly
"The only thing I hope for is that God exists."

Isn't that kinda really the point?

Sounds like you are having a spiritual crisis more than anything to me. Try reading M. Scott Peck's "The Road Less Travelled"...

Excellent book recommendation.

BTW, I like your nick... reminds me of Sweet Polly Purebred, cool!

 

[Kitros]

This is like Hitchikers Guide to the Galaxy...

"if life is going to exist in a Universe of this size, then one thing it cannot afford to have is a sense of proportion. "

 

[Booster]

This has affected my life so much lately that the only thing I will do is sleep. I don't want to deal with reality so I just fall asleep for as long as I can and when I've slept all I can, I'll stare at the ceiling until I fall asleep again. This is the rare occasion that I'll venture to my computer to visit Anandtech because this is my favorite site and I guess one of the only things I live for (Ha). So my standards have fallen in life. My goal in life is to get through life as a recluse because I no longer desire the pleasure of success or the pain of failure. I care about nothing and no one, least of all myself. I have one thing on my mind.

You just described my life, he-he. Well, I got a slightly different perception of life though. I also like to sleep, but that's b/c I'm currently rather ill and have been since 1999. I can still work and do stuff, but I don't feel the energy inside I once used to before the illness. Bad thing is that medicines don't seem to help me at all. Despite that, I like to live very much. I believe that I will find a better doctor who will prescribe me a better set of medicines that will finally cure me. I also would like to have some money. I work full time, and it doesn't help my well being. My ultimate goal in life is to achieve financial independance so that I can be my own boss, and to immingrate from my country. I also want to become someone... not just one of those guys. But despite that I understand you very well... I also have such feelings regularly... But I think it's b/c of my poor health currently.

Also... idNut, I think it's very cool of you to admit that you too have some problems of this kind... I don't feel like I'm alone in the boat anymore when I read posts of people like you.

 

[purepolly]

Booster - It's everyone's life at some point or another.

 

[Booster]

Originally posted by: purepolly
Booster - It's everyone's life at some point or another.

You think so? Not everyone's favorite site is ATOT so this can't be completely right, though. I wish I knew more of other people's lifes. Sometimes I puzzle over what these people who I see daily live like and what they think. I imagine the weirdest things about them. Who knows? Maybe this is true.

 

[Red Dawn]

Jeez, we need another ATOT Meet. This time the place will be the Comet Hale Bop

 

[Orsorum]

I have felt this, too - I once thought I was unique, I thought I had influence. I thought people noticed, or cared. And I was hurt when I received no accolades, no special treatment, no reverence from my peers. But, then, to realize - we are all pilgrims on a strange journey (that butchered quote is from somewhere, forgive my poor memory); our time comes and goes. When all is said and done, we must be at peace and leave it at that.

To live fully is to understand the ephemeral nature of human life, the fragility inherent in our existence. To attach any special importance to the world around us is to invite unnecessary pain and frustration. We live, we die, and that is the glory of life - its finality. The decision is made. Death is a gift shared by all men.

Not to say that life isn't worth living, or that anarchy should reign - certainly not. Part of the human experience is contributing to our culture and those around us (or is that redundant?). Life is meant to be enjoyed, although difficulties beset us all.

Godspeed, if God himself gives a whit about our cobalt globe - I wish you the best for your journey. May you find peace on your own terms.

 

[Booster]

we are all pilgrims on a strange journey

Well said. But what makes people depressed that once they get old enough they realize it's sometimes more like a journey of a roach around the glass, they just see no exit, no point. Of course it's not quite healthy, but it happens. Then it's time for a change. To change places, activities is very important all the time, IMO, or such conditions are inevitable.